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Hello. Yeah Im back, Sorry for no updates at all. Haha. Im lazy lol. Not just lazy, I was really busy. Im working now, So yeah. No time at all, not even for myself. :]]

However, I manage to keep up some time for my B. All I know I love him. No matter how busy I am, I'll make sure I have time for him. Especially when it comes to special moment. Morning and nights <3 . Thats special. When I wake up, A special Good Morning should be wish to him. And when Im gonna have a good rest at night. A sweet Good Night must be done. Im glad that he understand the situation Im in now. Especially when Im working, All he's getting was Pending sms. Haha. Sorry B. I'll work out something.

Btw, If you were thinking on asking about my life. Haha. Forget it. Its Up-side-down. Haha. Silly me. But thats normal right? If life is so perfect. What the use of us being human? Right? Haha. Then we should all be in heaven and have everything we want. Lol :]]

So far, On my work. Its helping me to slim down a bit. No No. Not a bit. Imagine this from 64kg goes to 57kg. Im-loving-it. Aha~ So yeah Its good for me. I'll keep it up. Hopefully it goes 55kg. Then, I'll be much happier. But somehow, I miss my chubbiness. Oh wait, Does the word Chubbiness even exist? o.O. haha. Whatever. Im gonna just use it. You do understand it right? So, Its cool.

So, I guess. Thats all I have to say for now. Nothing much. Haha. So, Thanks for reading my silly update. Haha. Bye.

P/s : B, Iloveyousodamnmuch. Yeah. Up-side-down. You stole my heart, and I love you for that <3

Sharul

06 April 2010 - Our best day (",)

Sharul, I wont ever forget this name. He's my soul, my destiny, my love, my hopes, and my everything. I was really down and he suddenly just appear in my life. He helps me to move on and Thank God he change almost everything about me. I am Hot-Tempered and it seems that Im not anymore. See how he change me? In just few days. Im really stubborn. You cant force me, and Sharul? He didnt even push me in anything. Its like Im doing it without any doubt and no one ask me. I cant even imagine how much I have changed. All Thanks to my B, Sharul. He makes me smile everyday, Every second. There's always something to cheer me up. No matter in what ways. He make me move on. He support me when I was really down. Thats was the best of him. He's sweet and cute. People always said this, "Im falling in love with someone". But for me, "B, Im falling for you, Not just once. Its for every second and for every heartbeat of mine. I love you and I will keep loving you more than ever".


And, He's really forgiving and understanding. Sometimes I made mistake and he just forgive me like its just a small matter. I respect him for how he keep his promise. He love me so much that he would let me go if I love my ex more than him. Where can you get a guy like him? Tell me. To be honest, I wont ever leave him. Unless there's a good reason for me to let him go. Seriously, He's so perfect in my eyes. As people said, "It depends on the eyes of the beholder". And he's perfect enough for me. I really hope I'll be with him. I dont think I'll be able to move on again if Im hurt again this time. There's something special about him. I just love him for that. I hope he's happy with me. I really love you Sharul.


I never thought that I'll cry tonight. Its not that Im hurt. Its that Im so thankful that I have him. He brings happiness and he cheer me up. He never hurt me, never yet. He keep making me laugh and he keep saying sorry for those small mistakes he made. For sometimes he fall asleep or he didnt text me because of no network. Each time he say sorry, a tear drop. Ya Allah. Im thankful that he's mine. Im really happy now and I wanna keep it this way. I really do. I'll try my best to keep him happy too. Lets just hope for the best. May Allah bless us. Amin.


B, This is for you. I really love you. I dont wanna hurt you again. Not anymore. Please forgive me for everything. And, Thank you again for everything. Thanks for being mine. You complete me and without you, Im nothing. My heart belongs to you. Its no longer missing. Im all yours syg. Im all yours <3

When I Look at You

Everybody needs inspiration
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the night’s so long
Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

When I look at you
I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars hold the moon
Right there where they belong and I know
I’m not alone

Yeah, when my world is falling apart
When there’s no light to break up the dark
That’s when I, I, I look at you
When the waves are flooding the shore and I
Can’t find my way home anymore
That’s when I, I, I look at you

You, appear, just like a dream to me
Just like cyledoscope colors that
Cover me
All I need
Every breath, that I breathe
Dontcha know?
Your beautiful

Yeah yeah..

When the waves are flooding the shore
And I cant find my way home anymore
Thats when I,
I I look at you
I look at you

Yeah yeah..
Oh oh..
You appear just like a dream to me..

Final Goodbye

I never should have waited so long to say
What I've always known since the very first day
Thought that you would stay forever with me
But the time has come to leave

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret, I've held all my life
It's you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you, till the final goodbye

Hold, draw me close, close to my lips
Listen intently, as I tell you this
Outside the world wages its wars
I'll rest in peace as long as you know

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret, I've held all my life
It's you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you, till the final goodbye

Promise you our love will carry on
Until you turn eternal, we belong

Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret, I've held all my life
It's you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you, till the final goodbye

His respectful lips for the last time
Spell out the lyrics to love in the sky
It's you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you, till the final goodbye, goodbye

White Horse

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

Evanescence - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]

The Last Words You Said - Sarah Brightman

Somewhere in time I know,
Darling you'll come back to me.
Roses will bloom again,
But Spring feels like eternity.
In your kiss it wasn't goodbye.
You are still the reason why.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were the last words you said to me.

And when the morning comes,
My hands still reach out for you.
Some things remain the same,
There is nothing I can do.
I can barely get through the day
Ever since you went away.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were your last words to me ...

Heaven help us cross this endless sea
With starlight above to guide you to me.
Waves crashing on distant shores,
They're calling our names forever more.

And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were the last words you said to me.

My best.

Loving you was the best moment. Loosing you was my favorite mistake. Moving on is the best thing. Crying explain everything. Time heals me. And memories is all I have.

Super ! (:

RUDE BOY - RIHANNA

[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy; can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy; is your big enough?
Take it, take it baby, baby
Take it, take it; love me, love me
[x2]

Tonight I'ma let you be the captain
Tonight I'ma let you do your thing, yeah
Tonight I'ma let you be a rider
Giddy-up, giddy-up, giddy-up babe
Tonight I'ma let it be fire
Tonight I'ma let you take me higher
Tonight, baby, we could get it on, yeah, we could get it on, yeah

Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah

[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]

Tonight I'ma give it to ya harder
Tonight I'ma turn ya body out
Relax; let me do it how I wanna
If you got it I need it and I'ma put it down
Buckle up; I'ma give it to ya stronger
Heads up; we could go a little longer
Tonight I'ma get a little crazy, get a little crazy, baby

Do you like it?
Boy, I want, want, want whatchu want, want, want
Give it to me, baby like boom, boom, boom
What I want, want, want is what you want, want, want
Nah nah-ah

[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy can you get it up?
Come here rude boy, boy is your big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]

I like the way you touch me there
I like the way you pull my hair
Babe, if I don't feel it I ain't faking, no, no
I like when you tell me 'kiss you here'
I like when you tell me 'move it there'
So get it up; time to get it up: you say you a rude boy: show me what you got now
Come here right now

Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me

[Chorus]
Come here, rude boy, boy, can you get it up?
Come here, rude boy, boy, is you big enough?
Take it, take it, baby, baby, take it, take it, love me, love me
[x2]